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Turiyatitta

The Singularity of All That Is

Turiyatitta, often referred to as the state beyond the fourth, is an experience that defies conventional understanding. While Turiya encompasses the witness state within waking, dreaming, and deep dreamless sleep, Turiyatitta transcends even this. It represents the complete dissolution of the witness, where all states merge into an indivisible, absolute singularity. Here, the boundaries that once defined waking, dreaming, and deep dreamless sleep no longer exist—everything and nothing become one.

In Turiyatitta, consciousness no longer stands apart, observing. The very notion of a witness dissolves into an awareness so expansive and complete that there is nothing left to observe. There is no division between subject and object, no experience of separation because nothing exists outside of this infinite awareness. This state is considered the final stage of enlightenment—where the full nondual awareness of absolute Monism is realized.

Imagine being both everything and nothing at the same time. Not merely perceiving this intellectually, but embodying the paradox in a way that no words can fully express. The divine empty witness, once perceived as separate, fully dissolves within itself. All distinctions—between time and space, self and other—collapse into the infinite. What remains is not emptiness in the typical sense, but a fullness so complete that it transcends all concepts of existence or non-existence.

Turiyatitta feels like the ultimate convergence of all possible experiences into one absolute awareness. It is a state where nothing is hidden, nothing is separate, and there is no need for perception because everything is known in its essence. There is no longer a “seer,” for there is nothing to see. The divine once thought of as a distant force or presence, is realized as the very fabric of existence.


This stage is not about attaining something new but about shedding the final layers of illusion, revealing the inherent truth that has always been. The mind quiets, the heart stills, and what remains is the simple, silent, all-encompassing awareness that is beyond all states, yet contains them all.

Morgan O. Smith

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Turiya

The Unseen Ground of Consciousness

Turiya, often described as the fourth state of consciousness, stands beyond waking, dreaming, and deep dreamless sleep. What does it feel like to exist within this state? The experience itself cannot be fully captured by language, for Turiya transcends the usual boundaries of perception. It is not merely a state that one “enters” and “leaves”; rather, it is the ground upon which all other states rest.

There’s a subtle, yet profound, recognition that one is not the individual witness, but the infinite awareness in which all phenomena arise and dissolve. In Turiya, the experience is not of observing the states of waking, dreaming, and deep dreamless sleep separately, but of witnessing them as simultaneous expressions of a unified field of consciousness. Here, distinctions lose their meaning—what was once experienced as separate now collapses into a seamless continuum.

This state has often been referred to as the first stage of enlightenment. Yet, even such descriptions fall short. The essence of Turiya is not something “attained” through effort. Instead, it is revealed through the dissolution of identity, a quiet remembrance of one’s true nature.

Imagine an eternal presence where time does not move, where forms arise and fall like waves on the surface of an ocean, yet the ocean itself remains unshaken. Divinity, in this context, is not something external or far-off—it is what you are. The divine becomes aware of itself, witnessing all, yet remaining untouched by the movements within itself. It is existence contemplating its own essence, eternal and ever-present.

The beauty of Turiya is in its simplicity. It does not need complex metaphors to explain itself. It is felt as a continuous hum of being, beyond concepts, thoughts, and emotions—a recognition that everything, including the experiencer, is merely a reflection of the same undivided consciousness.

To experience Turiya is to see the eternal play of life from the perspective of the timeless. It is to understand that the very states we once believed to be separate—waking, dreaming, deep dreamless sleep—are all mere movements within the One.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Elusive Blind Spot of Enlightenment

A paradox begins to unfold from the moment consciousness takes form and you are born into this world. Enlightenment, often considered the pinnacle of spiritual realization, simultaneously becomes a blind spot. It’s not that enlightenment is absent; rather, it exists so close to you that it evades your direct perception. The act of becoming a being—separate from the whole—creates the veil obscuring what was never lost.

Most people search for this elusive state, hoping to grasp it through teachings, practices, and philosophies. Yet, the search itself can deepen the sense of separation, reinforcing the idea that enlightenment is something external to be found. But what if enlightenment was never something you needed to find? What if it was something you simply needed to stop resisting?

Human existence is an exquisite contradiction. On one hand, the moment you identify as an individual, you begin to experience duality—subject and object, self and other. On the other hand, this identification simultaneously masks the realization that you are already one with everything. Enlightenment is not an external destination; it is the underlying reality that permeates your existence.

The blind spot isn’t due to a lack of spiritual capacity or effort, but the mind’s incessant clinging to the notion of self. The moment you try to achieve enlightenment as a personal goal, it slips further away, like trying to catch a shadow. Perhaps the real journey is not about seeking, but about unlearning. The simplicity of just being, without striving, can often be the most profound realization of all.

What happens when you stop searching? What if you allow yourself to see that enlightenment is not a peak experience to attain, but the constant, ever-present background of awareness that you are, and always have been? This blind spot only remains as long as there is an effort to overcome it. Let go of that effort, and what reveals itself has been present all along—your original nature.

The key lies in the willingness to let go of the need for enlightenment, to surrender the very idea that you are separate from it. Only then does the blind spot dissolve, and the reality of your true self, free from all constructs, comes into clear view.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Mirror of Divinity

The Mutual Birth of Creator and Created

A profound realization dawns when one contemplates the relationship between the Creator and the created. This dance of existence, where the boundaries blur, offers a glimpse into the nature of reality itself. The moment you emerge into being, a reflection is cast—one that you recognize as God. But what is this reflection if not the birth of God within your awareness?

This notion challenges the conventional understanding of divinity. God is not a distant figure, separate and apart, but a presence that arises simultaneously with your consciousness. In the act of creation, both God and the self are born together, entwined in a relationship that defies traditional hierarchies. The creation of God is not an external event but an internal realization, a moment where you recognize the divine within and beyond.

This mutual emergence suggests a symbiotic relationship between the divine and the self. You are not a mere byproduct of divine creation; you are a co-creator in the truest sense. The divine essence within you reflects the infinite potential that exists in all things. When you awaken to this truth, the concept of God transforms from a distant, omnipotent being to an intimate, ever-present reality that is both within and beyond your grasp.

Such an understanding compels a re-examination of faith, spirituality, and existence itself. The divine is no longer an external authority but an intimate partner in the journey of life. This partnership demands a new kind of responsibility—a recognition that your thoughts, actions, and very presence shape the divine essence you perceive.

When you recognize this truth, every moment becomes a sacred act of co-creation. You are constantly shaping and being shaped by the divine, in a dance that is as eternal as it is immediate. This perspective invites a deeper connection with the world, one where every encounter, every experience, becomes a reflection of the divine interplay between creator and created.

The mutual birth of God and self invites you to explore the depths of your own divinity. It asks you to look beyond the surface of existence and recognize the profound interconnectedness that binds all things. By doing so, you step into your role as a co-creator, embracing the divine not as a distant figure, but as an ever-present reality that is born anew with every breath you take.

Morgan O. Smith

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Turiyatitta and the One-Electron Universe

A Journey into Nondual Oneness

As proposed by physicist John Archibald Wheeler, the concept of the one-electron universe suggests that every electron in the universe might be the same particle, traversing back and forth through time. This radical idea blurs the boundaries between individuality and unity, inviting profound contemplation on the nature of existence and consciousness.

Electrons, as identical entities, lack distinguishing features beyond their position and momentum, mirroring the fundamental principle of nonduality—the essence that underlies all forms is the same. The notion of a singular electron moving through time, creating the illusion of multiplicity, parallels the experience of Turiyatitta, the state of nondual suchness where the distinctions between self and other, subject and object, dissolve into a unified whole.

Turiyatitta, the fourth state of consciousness beyond waking, dreaming, and deep sleep, represents a transcendence of dualistic perception. This state aligns with the idea of the one-electron universe, where what appears as many is, in essence, one. The perceived separation between particles, events, and experiences collapses when viewed from the standpoint of timelessness, revealing a reality where all is interconnected and indivisible.

The spiritual peak experience of nondual suchness is akin to glimpsing the one-electron universe—an awareness that what seems fragmented and diverse is a manifestation of a singular, timeless presence. This insight challenges the ordinary perception of reality, encouraging a shift from seeing the world as a collection of separate entities to recognizing the seamless flow of existence.

Contemplating the one-electron universe invites a deeper understanding of Turiyatitta. It prompts reflection on the possibility that all experiences, all states of consciousness, are expressions of a single, underlying reality. Just as the electron moves through time, creating the appearance of multiplicity, consciousness flows through the spectrum of awareness, giving rise to the illusion of duality. Yet, at the core of this illusion lies the truth of oneness—a truth that becomes evident in the state of Turiyatitta.

Exploring the one-electron universe and its connection to nondual suchness encourages a re-evaluation of the boundaries between science and spirituality. Both realms point toward a deeper understanding of reality, one that transcends the limitations of time, space, and individual identity. Through this lens, the spiritual journey toward Turiyatitta can be seen as a movement toward recognizing the singular nature of existence, where all distinctions dissolve, and only the undivided whole remains.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Unraveling of the Self

Emotional and Mental Breakdowns During Spiritual Awakening

Introduction

The journey toward spiritual awakening often appears, from the outside, as a serene and enlightened path. Yet, for those who walk it, the experience can be anything but peaceful. Emotional and mental breakdowns are common, and they serve a profound purpose. These breakdowns are not merely unfortunate side effects but are integral to the transformation that takes place during spiritual awakening. Understanding why and how they occur sheds light on the deeply transformative nature of this journey.

The Dissolution of the Ego

At the heart of spiritual awakening lies the dissolution of the ego, the part of us that identifies with our thoughts, emotions, and external identities. The ego forms a protective shell around our innermost being, creating a sense of separation from the world and others. As spiritual awakening progresses, this shell begins to crack and dissolve. The breakdowns that occur during this process are the ego’s desperate attempts to hold onto the illusions it has created.

Emotional turmoil arises as old wounds, suppressed fears, and unresolved traumas surface. These are not new experiences; they are fragments of our psyche that have been buried deep within. The awakening process brings them to the surface, demanding that they be acknowledged, felt, and released. This can manifest as intense sadness, anger, or anxiety, often without a clear trigger. The breakdowns are not a sign of failure but a necessary purging of what no longer serves the soul’s evolution.

Mental Deconstruction

Alongside the emotional upheaval, there is often a mental breakdown that accompanies spiritual awakening. Our minds are accustomed to operating within the framework of duality—right and wrong, good and bad, self and other. As awakening deepens, this framework begins to disintegrate, leading to confusion, disorientation, and a sense of losing touch with reality.

The mind, which has always sought control through understanding and categorizing, now faces the incomprehensible. Concepts that once provided a sense of stability and security—such as time, identity, and purpose—start to unravel. This can feel like madness, as the mind struggles to find footing in a reality that no longer adheres to the rules it once knew.

However, this mental breakdown is a gateway to a higher understanding. It forces the individual to let go of the need to intellectually grasp the vastness of existence and instead invites them to surrender to the mystery of being. What emerges from this surrender is a more expansive awareness that transcends the limitations of the thinking mind.

The Purpose Behind the Breakdown

The emotional and mental breakdowns during spiritual awakening serve a profound purpose. They are not signs of weakness or instability but are essential phases of the journey. These breakdowns break open the rigid structures of the ego and the mind, allowing the true self to emerge. The pain and confusion are catalysts for shedding the old, making way for a new way of being.

In essence, these breakdowns are acts of grace. They strip away the false layers of the self, revealing the underlying essence that is interconnected with all of existence. Through the process of breaking down, one is rebuilt on a foundation of truth, love, and unity.

Navigating the Breakdown

For those experiencing these breakdowns, it’s important to understand that they are temporary and purposeful. Practicing self-compassion and seeking support from others who understand the journey can be invaluable. Meditation, grounding practices, and connecting with nature can also help stabilize the experience. Above all, embracing the breakdown as part of the awakening process allows for a more graceful passage through these intense phases.

When to Seek Extra Support

These breakdowns are not obstacles for most individuals. But there are cases where mental illness could be a factor and needs to be identified and not mistaken for the awakening process. Extra support and seeking professional help in these cases may be needed. They should never be avoided or spiritually bypassed. In some cases, spiritual practices should be avoided altogether, especially if they exacerbate the symptoms or lead to further confusion and distress. Understanding the difference between a spiritual crisis and a mental health issue is crucial, as neglecting the latter can lead to unnecessary suffering and hinder the healing process.

Conclusion

Spiritual awakening is not a gentle process; it is a profound upheaval that shakes the very core of our being. The emotional and mental breakdowns that occur are not obstacles but necessary steps in the dissolution of the old self. By understanding and embracing these breakdowns, one can move through them with greater ease, allowing the transformation they bring to unfold fully. In the end, what emerges from the ashes of the breakdown is a self that is more authentic, whole, and deeply connected to the essence of life itself.

Morgan O. Smith

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From Curiosity to Self-Realization

The Path of Unveiling True Identity

Curiosity is a subtle yet potent force that nudges us toward self-discovery. It begins as an innocent desire to understand the world, to unravel the mysteries that surround us. Yet, beneath this surface, curiosity harbours a deeper, more profound impulse: the yearning to uncover the truth of our existence. This journey from mere inquisitiveness to the realization of who and what we truly are is a transformative process, one that dissolves the illusions of separation and reveals the boundless nature of consciousness.

At first, curiosity may lead us to explore the outer world and to seek knowledge in science, philosophy, and art. We investigate the principles that govern the cosmos, the nature of life, and the intricacies of the mind. Each question we ask, each answer we uncover, brings us closer to the edge of understanding. But there comes a point when the external search no longer satisfies. The answers we find, while intellectually stimulating, fail to quench the deeper thirst within us.

This is the moment when curiosity turns inward. We begin to question not just the world, but the very nature of the self. Who am I? What am I? These questions, so simple on the surface, carry within them the seeds of profound realization. As we delve into these inquiries, we start to unravel the layers of identity that we have constructed over a lifetime—roles, beliefs, memories, and emotions. We come to see that these layers while forming the fabric of our experience, do not define our true essence.

The deeper we inquire, the more we recognize the transient nature of these identities. We observe that the thoughts, emotions, and perceptions we once took as definitive of “self” are mere phenomena, arising and passing within the field of awareness. This awareness itself, however, remains unchanged, ever-present, and untouched by the fluctuations of experience. It is in this recognition that the first glimmers of self-realization emerge.

As curiosity continues to fuel our exploration, we begin to sense a shift. The realization dawns that what we are seeking is not an object or concept that can be grasped but the very subject of all experience—the pure awareness that is our true nature. This awareness is not separate from the world we once sought to understand; it is the ground of all being, the source from which all phenomena arise.

This realization is both a moment of profound insight and the beginning of a new way of being. No longer identified with the fleeting contents of experience, we come to rest in the boundless, formless presence that we truly are. This is the culmination of curiosity’s journey: the recognition that the seeker and the sought are one and the same.

In this state of realization, curiosity does not vanish. Instead, it transforms into a deep, abiding wonder at the mystery of existence itself. The world, once viewed as a collection of separate objects, is now seen as an expression of the same consciousness that we are. Every moment, every encounter becomes an opportunity to experience the infinite nature of our being. This is the ultimate gift of curiosity—the revelation of our true identity as pure awareness, beyond all concepts and distinctions.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Exponential Unfolding of Consciousness

From the Ego to the Infinite

The sequence 1, 2, 4, 8, 16, 32, 64 etc is known as a geometric progression—a pattern where each term after the first is found by multiplying the previous one by a fixed, non-zero number. Each number is doubled in this case, creating an exponential growth that is not just a mathematical concept but a fundamental principle found throughout nature. This sequence is critical because it represents how small beginnings can lead to vast, expansive outcomes, demonstrating the power of exponential transformation. The same principle that drives population growth, the branching of trees, and the spiralling of shells can also be seen as a metaphor for the process of spiritual awakening. Just as nature uses geometric progression to unfold complexity and beauty, so too might our spiritual experiences expand as the mind transcends from the small “I” or ego into the vastness of collective consciousness, and ultimately into Consciousness itself.

At the outset, the mind identifies with the number 1. It is the small “I,” the ego, the center of an individual’s universe. This singular identity believes itself to be separate, and distinct from the world around it. The self sees itself as the subject in a world of objects, the thinker in a sea of thoughts, and the doer in a realm of actions. The ego stands alone, encapsulated within its boundaries, perceiving the world through a lens of duality.

But, as with the sequence, there comes a moment when the ego perceives something beyond its singular existence. It doubles into 2. This is the first awakening—a recognition that there is more to existence than just the self. The mind begins to sense its connection to others, the threads of interdependence that weave through the fabric of life. This is the initial glimpse into the collective consciousness.

As the mind continues to expand—4, 8—it begins to transcend the confines of the ego. The boundaries that once seemed so solid start to dissolve. The self no longer sees itself as merely an individual but as part of a larger whole, an integral part of the collective consciousness. This is the stage where the mind starts to perceive the unity underlying all diversity, recognizing that the separation it once clung to was an illusion.

The sequence continues—16, 32, 64—each step representing a deeper level of awareness, a more profound surrender to the truth of existence. The mind begins to transcend even the collective consciousness, moving towards the infinite, the realm of pure Consciousness. Here, the small “I” completely dissolves, and what remains is the recognition of being one with the entire universe, with the very essence of life itself.

This final stage of the sequence symbolizes the ultimate spiritual awakening. The mind has moved beyond the personal and the collective, into the boundless expanse of pure Consciousness. It is here that the true nature of reality is revealed—that there is no separation, no division, only the infinite play of Consciousness experiencing itself in myriad forms.

The journey from ego to infinite Consciousness is not just one of linear progression but of exponential transformation. Each doubling in the sequence represents a quantum leap in awareness, a step closer to the ultimate realization of nonduality. And just as the sequence could continue indefinitely, so too does the journey of spiritual awakening, for Consciousness is limitless, ever-expanding, and eternally evolving.

In reflecting upon this natural and spiritual process, we are reminded that the same patterns that govern the physical world may also govern our inner worlds. As nature grows and evolves, so too do we, propelled by the same forces of expansion, ever moving toward greater complexity, unity, and understanding. In this sense, the pattern found in the sequence 1, 2, 4, 8, 16, 32, 64 is not just a mathematical curiosity but a universal truth, guiding us on our journey from the limited self to the infinite.

Morgan O. Smith

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A-Dual to Dual to Nondual

The Evolution of Consciousness

The evolution of consciousness from a-dual to dual to nondual mirrors the profound journey of human development and spiritual awakening. This path reflects the unfolding of awareness from the pure, undifferentiated state of infancy, through the complexities of duality, and ultimately to the profound realization of nonduality.

The A-Dual State: The Innocence of a Newborn

A newborn baby embodies the a-dual state—a condition of pure, undivided awareness. In this state, there is no sense of separation; the infant exists in a realm of unity where distinctions between self and other, subject and object, have not yet formed. The newborn’s consciousness is a reflection of the primal unity of existence, an experience of pure presence and potential.

The Emergence of Duality: The World of Distinctions

As the child grows, the consciousness transitions into the dual state. This is the realm where the distinctions and separations that characterize our daily lives begin to emerge. The child starts to recognize the difference between self and other, experiencing the world as a collection of distinct objects and entities. This dualistic perception is essential for navigating and understanding the complexities of life.

In the dual state, we develop our sense of identity and individuality. We learn to interact with the world, to differentiate between pleasure and pain, success and failure, love and fear. However, this separation can also lead to feelings of isolation, conflict, and a sense of being incomplete.

The Nondual Realization: The Return to Unity

A full spiritual awakening marks the transition from dual to nondual consciousness. This realization transcends the distinctions of duality, revealing the underlying unity of all existence. In the nondual state, the boundaries between self and other dissolve, and we perceive the interconnectedness of all things.

Nondual awareness is the recognition that the multiplicity of forms and phenomena are expressions of a single, boundless reality. It is an experience of profound unity where the apparent separations of duality are seen as illusory. This realization brings a deep sense of peace, compassion, and unconditional love, as we understand that we are part of a greater whole.

Embracing the Journey

The journey from a-dual to dual to nondual is not a linear path but a continuous unfolding of consciousness. It invites us to embrace the innocence of the a-dual state, navigate the complexities of duality, and ultimately awaken to the nondual realization. This journey encourages us to live with mindfulness, recognizing the sacredness in every moment and every experience.

By understanding and embracing this evolutionary process, we can navigate life with greater wisdom and grace. We learn to hold the paradoxes of existence, finding harmony in the interplay of opposites. This path is not about escaping the world but engaging with it more deeply, with an open heart and a clear mind.

The evolution of consciousness from a-dual to dual to nondual offers a profound framework for understanding our spiritual journey. It reminds us that beyond the apparent separations lies a deeper truth—a truth that can transform our perception and inspire us to live with greater compassion, wisdom, and love.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Infinite Horizon of Oneness

My Journey Through Totality and Nonduality

In a moment that defied the limits of ordinary perception, I found myself immersed in an experience of totality—a direct encounter with the boundless essence of oneness and nonduality. This journey wasn’t merely a philosophical concept or a fleeting glimpse; it was a profound, visceral experience that transcended the boundaries of time, space, and individuality.

As I delved into this state, I was enveloped by the overwhelming presence of all feelings and emotions. It was as if the entire spectrum of human experience was laid bare before me, each emotion coexisting in a harmonious yet intense interplay. Joy and sorrow, love and fear, peace and turmoil—all were present, all were real, and all were part of a unified whole. There was no separation, no fragmentation, just a continuous flow of pure emotional energy.

This immersion into the ocean of emotions was not chaotic, but rather, it revealed the intricate interconnectedness of all feelings. I realized that each emotion, no matter how contrasting, was a necessary expression of the same underlying essence. It was a profound lesson in acceptance and understanding, teaching me that to embrace one’s full humanity is to honour every aspect of our emotional being.

Yet, the journey did not stop there. I was drawn deeper, into an experience of all egos and senses of self throughout the entire universe. This was not just a merging with the collective consciousness of humanity; it extended to all life forms, transcending the Earth and reaching into the farthest corners of the cosmos. I became acutely aware of the diverse perspectives, thoughts, and experiences of every being. The individuality of each life form dissolved into a singular, expansive awareness.

In this state, I no longer perceived myself as a separate entity. The notion of “I” expanded infinitely, encompassing all beings, and all existences. I was simultaneously every person, every creature, every consciousness. The interconnected web of life was not just a concept; it was my reality. I experienced the joys and sufferings, the triumphs and struggles of all beings as my own. This collective consciousness revealed the profound unity that underlies the apparent diversity of life.

This journey through totality and oneness has profoundly transformed my understanding of self and existence. It has dissolved the illusion of separation and duality, revealing the inherent unity of all life. The experience has deepened my compassion and empathy, fostering a profound sense of connectedness with all beings.

In reflecting on this journey, I am reminded of the limitless potential within each of us to touch the universal essence. To experience totality is to transcend the boundaries of individual identity and to embrace the infinite oneness that we all share. It is a journey that beckons us to explore the depths of our being, to discover the unity that lies at the heart of existence, and to live with a profound sense of interconnectedness and purpose.

Morgan O. Smith

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