Tag: Ego death

Ego Death Is Not a Metaphor

Ego death is often spoken about casually, yet nothing about it is casual. It is not a poetic phrase, nor a dramatic exaggeration. Something very specific occurs—precise, unmistakable, and irreversible at the level of insight.

This is not a biological event. The body remains alive. The brain continues to function. Memory does not disappear. Consciousness does not black out. What vanishes is the internal reference point that says, this is me. The structure that once organized experience around a personal center dissolves, and with it goes the assumption of separation.

No negotiation happens here. No partial surrender. No internal debate. Doubt does not survive the moment. The mind does not ask whether this is real. Verification becomes unnecessary because the one who would seek confirmation is no longer present.

Psychological death may sound abstract until it happens. When it does, the body reacts as though an actual death is occurring. Survival instincts flare. Meaning collapses. Familiar orientation fails. Yet awareness remains clear—perhaps clearer than it has ever been. This clarity is what distinguishes ego death from unconsciousness. Awareness does not dim. It expands beyond the need for identity.

Enlightenment does not occur after ego death. Enlightenment is what is revealed when the ego can no longer interfere. The ego cannot be refined into truth. It cannot be educated into realization. It must fall away entirely, because it is structurally incapable of holding what is uncovered.

At the causal level of realization, identity no longer rests in form, personality, history, or narrative. Cause and effect are no longer observed from the outside. They are known as oneself. Everything that arises is recognized as both originating from and resolving into the same source. Nothing stands apart. Nothing is accidental. Agency is no longer personal, yet responsibility is absolute.

Deeper still, even causality dissolves. Distinctions between origin and outcome lose meaning. What remains is not many things connected, but a single indivisible reality. This is what Advaita Vedanta names Absolute Monism; not a belief, not a concept, but a lived recognition.

Time no longer appears linear. Past, present, and future are not sequential events but simultaneous expressions. Every occurrence, across all scales and dimensions, is apprehended as one movement without edges. Beginning and ending collapse into the same point. Eternity ceases to be a duration and reveals itself as immediacy.

The ego cannot survive this recognition. It was never meant to. The ego exists to navigate relativity, not to comprehend totality. Asking it to grasp nonduality is like asking a shadow to contain light. The moment the ego loosens its grip, what remains is not annihilation, but the recognition that life and death were never opposites.

Ego death feels final because it ends the search forever. Nothing remains to achieve. Nothing remains to defend. What is discovered was never acquired. It was always present, waiting for the interference to stop.

This is why enlightenment is never uncertain. Anyone still asking whether it happened is still standing outside the threshold. When it occurs, the questioner disappears, and only knowing remains; silent, complete, and beyond reversal.

Morgan O. Smith

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Ego Death vs. Super-Ego Death

When individuality dissolves—and when the collective mask collapses

Ego death has become familiar language within spiritual circles. It often refers to the collapse of the personal story; the felt sense of “me” as a separate centre of control, identity, and continuity. Thoughts still arise, sensations still move, yet the claim of ownership quietly disappears. Experience continues without a narrator insisting it belongs to someone.

This event can feel absolute. Many report vastness, silence, love without an object, or a direct recognition of being awareness itself. The personal mask falls away, and with it the emotional gravity of self-protection, shame, pride, and comparison. Life continues, yet it is no longer filtered through the need to defend or improve a fictional self.

Still, something subtle often remains.

Beneath the personal ego sits another structure, far less discussed and far more persistent: the super-ego of the collective. This is not merely morality or social conditioning. It is the internalized voice of humanity itself; the inherited myths, hierarchies, spiritual ideals, political narratives, and cultural agreements that define what counts as real, good, awakened, successful, or worthy.

Ego death removes the personal actor. Super-ego death removes the stage.

Super-ego death is not about becoming rebellious or rejecting society. It is the dissolution of the unseen authority that claims reality must conform to shared agreements. This includes spiritual identities just as much as material ones. The enlightened persona, the wise teacher, the healed one, the awakened exemplar, all of these belong to the collective ego, even when the personal ego has already fallen.

This is why some awakenings still feel constrained. Freedom is tasted, yet behavior unconsciously bends to invisible rules. One no longer needs approval as an individual, yet still seeks legitimacy through lineage, doctrine, community, or role. Silence is known, yet language is chosen carefully to avoid exile from the group.

Super-ego death arrives when even the collective lens loses its authority.

No tradition holds the final word. No framework owns truth. No spiritual map is mistaken for the territory it points toward. Morality is no longer outsourced to consensus. Meaning no longer depends on agreement. What remains is not isolation, but radical intimacy; life meeting itself without mediation.

This does not produce chaos. It produces clarity.

Action becomes responsive rather than obedient. Compassion arises without ideology. Ethics emerge organically, shaped by direct contact rather than inherited commandments. One may still participate in society, teach, lead, love, and create, but without the invisible pressure to represent anything.

Personal ego death says, “I am not who I thought I was.”
Super-ego death says, “Reality is not what we collectively agreed it must be.”

Very few speak from this territory because it offers no badge. Nothing can be claimed. No position can be stabilized. Language points, then dissolves. Authority evaporates.

What remains cannot be organized, branded, or defended.

Life continues, unowned, unruled, uncontained, expressing itself freely, without asking permission from the individual or the crowd.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Death of the Knower

The mind, magnificent as it is, remains bound by the architecture of limitation. It can dissect, analyze, and categorize, but cannot hold everything and nothing at once. The mind functions through exclusion; it defines reality by what it is not. To include all possibilities would dissolve the very mechanism that makes thinking possible. This is the paradox at the heart of consciousness: the tool we use to understand reality is incapable of containing its totality.

When consciousness stretches beyond the contours of thought, something begins to unravel. The self that once claimed ownership of perception collapses. What is commonly called the “ego death” is not the destruction of identity but its suspension. Awareness steps beyond its familiar edges and witnesses existence without filters, without the narrow lens of self-reference. The observer and the observed dissolve into a single field of knowing that cannot be known by thought.

This death is a gateway. It allows the unthinkable to reveal itself; not as a concept, but as direct realization. What remains after the mind’s surrender is not absence but presence; an intelligence too vast to belong to any one being. When the ego dies, even for a moment, the universe breathes through you, unfragmented and whole. You are not experiencing the infinite; you are the infinite experiencing itself.

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Meeting the Unknowable

Gazing into the Face of the Infinite

There may come a moment when stillness deepens, and the mind gives way to something vast and formless. No longer bound by identity, perception turns inward, unveiling a presence that has always been there—unseen, yet intimately familiar.

This is not the face reflected in mirrors or the self shaped by memory and experience. It is something far more primordial, resting beneath all layers of perception. It neither belongs to time nor is confined by space. It is the first and the last, the one who watches and the one being watched.

To encounter this presence is to witness creation itself—a fluid, luminous movement, folding and unfolding like breath. What appears as a single vision contains an entire cosmos, shifting and reforming in patterns beyond understanding. A current of knowing flows from it, carrying the weight of both stillness and storm, tenderness and terror. There is no contradiction—only the totality of what is.

This vision may stir awe, but it will also strip away illusion. The small self—the fragile construct of name, form, and history—begins to dissolve. The ego, unprepared for its own undoing, clings to the edges of familiarity. It resists, yet it cannot hold. The presence that once seemed separate reveals itself as the origin of all things.

Ancient myths have spoken of this encounter. Some say none can see it and live. But it is not the body that perishes—it is the illusion of separateness that fractures beyond repair. And while the mind trembles, something deeper recognizes the moment for what it is: a return, not a loss.

What once appeared unreachable was never distant. The face sought for lifetimes has always been the one looking through these eyes. The one seeking has always been the sought.

Standing before this presence is not to be destroyed but made whole.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Abyss Within

Facing the Shadows Before Awakening

There exists a realm within the psyche so obscure, so deeply buried beneath layers of identity, that even those who have touched the pinnacle of awakening may remain oblivious to its existence. It is the final frontier before the self dissolves entirely—a territory littered with unexamined fears, concealed transgressions, and desires too shameful to acknowledge.

Before awakening completes its course, before the false self collapses into the boundless expanse of nonduality, there is a reckoning. A descent into the darkest corridors of the mind where the most primitive aspects of existence, both personal and collective, make their presence known. This is not a mere psychological reckoning; it is an existential confrontation, one that strips away the illusion of separation between the individual and the whole of suffering itself.

A being in the throes of this revelation does not merely observe suffering from a distance. Instead, suffering is embodied in its totality—experienced both as the tormentor and the tormented, as the blade and the wound, as the hands that enslave and those that are bound. Every atrocity carried out by humankind, every act of cruelty and despair, rises to the surface. The weight of this recognition is nearly unbearable, a force that shatters all prior conceptions of selfhood. Many break under this pressure; some contemplate escape. Yet for those who endure, something extraordinary occurs.

The searing agony of this confrontation serves a purpose. It dismantles illusions, forces the heart open, and stretches the limits of compassion to their furthest extent. Empathy ceases to be an abstract virtue—it becomes an all-consuming fire that purifies everything in its path. Walking through this inferno does not incinerate the awakened one but instead renders them indestructible, unshaken by the fluctuations of worldly suffering. The very act of seeing, of bearing witness to every grotesque distortion of human nature, births an indescribable clarity—an awareness so vast it can hold both horror and grace without resistance.

No one seeks this path. It is not chosen by desire, nor does it reward the seeker with comfort. It arrives unbidden, reserved for those who must cross the threshold through trial and surrender. To move through this passage is to endure a crucifixion of the self, an initiation that cannot be bypassed. Yet for those who survive its rending force, the view on the other side is unparalleled. A vision beyond words, an existence that moves with effortless grace, guided by a heart that no longer clings to the illusions of division.

This journey is not a metaphor. It is a lived reality, known only to those who have walked barefoot across the glass of their shattered being. And for them, the world is no longer the same.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Face of God and the End of Seeing

Most claim to have glimpsed the divine return with words that struggle to hold the weight of such an encounter. Many never return at all. To see the face of God and live is to step beyond the boundary where existence dissolves, where the self is unmade, and where reality, as it was once known, folds into itself like a dream dissolving at dawn.

Yet, what does it mean to see the face of God? Is it an experience of light so blinding that perception shatters? Is it a presence so vast that identity collapses? Or is it something even more elusive – something that was always here, hidden in the folds of ordinary awareness?

Some traditions warn against such an encounter, suggesting that no mortal can bear it and remain intact. Others speak of it as the ultimate reward, the final unveiling before absolute union. Yet, the paradox remains: how can one see the source of all things when the very act of seeing implies separation?

The face of God is neither a thing to be seen nor an object to be grasped. It is not found by looking outward or inward, for it is the very looking itself. The one who searches, the act of searching, and the sought-after presence all collapse into a singularity where distinctions dissolve. The moment of recognition is not a discovery but an obliteration – the end of every illusion that once passed for truth.

To live beyond such an encounter is to live without the weight of selfhood as it was once known. The personal dissolves, yet presence remains. There is nothing left to hold onto, yet nothing is missing. Some might call this madness. Others, liberation. But labels fall apart before the silent immensity of what remains.

Those who have seen and lived do not return with doctrine. They do not bring commandments carved into stone or revelations bound in pages. They return with an absence, a quiet, an emptiness more alive than any presence. And in that emptiness, a love beyond measure, a freedom beyond desire, and a knowing beyond thought.

Not all will understand. That, too, is part of the design.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Catalyst for the Ego’s Demise

The experience often referred to as “ego death” is not the obliteration of the self, but rather the dissolution of its illusions. The ego, a construct woven from the threads of identity, attachment, and fear, functions as a survival mechanism. It clings to roles, titles, and the narrative of separation to sustain its existence. Yet, this clinging obscures the deeper truth of who we are—a boundless consciousness that cannot be confined by labels or stories.

Ego death is not an event brought about by force, but a consequence of profound surrender. It arises when the conditions are ripe, often catalyzed by deep meditation, spiritual awakening, or transformative life experiences. These moments of clarity reveal the ego for what it is: a temporary construct, a shadow cast by the mind in its attempt to define the undefinable.

The catalyst for this unravelling often comes disguised. It may appear as a crisis—a moment when the identity we have constructed no longer holds up against the weight of reality. It may manifest as awe, where the boundaries of self dissolve in the face of something greater than the mind can grasp. Sometimes, it is the gradual erosion of ego through years of contemplation and self-inquiry, as if the winds of awareness slowly wear away the stone of selfhood.

The process of ego death can feel terrifying. The ego perceives its dissolution as annihilation, a threat to its very existence. Yet, for the one who witnesses this unravelling, it is liberation. What is revealed is not a void, but fullness—an infinite presence, free of the limitations imposed by the ego’s grip.

Paradoxically, the ego’s demise does not result in the loss of individuality, but a clearer expression of it. Freed from the distortions of fear and attachment, the individual becomes a unique channel for universal consciousness. Actions flow not from a sense of lack or separation, but from wholeness and authenticity.

This death of the ego is not a single moment, but an ongoing practice of letting go. It requires vigilance and a willingness to face the shadows that linger in the mind. Each time the ego asserts itself through judgment, resistance, or attachment, it offers an opportunity to recognize its presence and release its hold.

The catalyst for the ego’s demise is ultimately the realization that it was never truly alive. It is a phantom, a mirage that dissolves when illuminated by the light of awareness. In its absence, what remains is not emptiness, but the unshakable truth of being—a truth that was always present, quietly waiting to be revealed.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Multilayered Journey of Ego Dissolution

In the intricate dance of spiritual awakening, the ego stands as both a necessary companion and a formidable obstacle. Our journey to self-realization often involves peeling away the layers of this multifaceted construct, each layer representing a different aspect of our perceived identity.

The ego, much like an onion, is composed of multiple layers. These layers symbolize the various roles, beliefs, and attachments we accumulate throughout our lives. Initially, shedding these layers can be a liberating experience. We feel lighter, more connected to our true selves, and less bound by societal expectations and personal fears. Each removed layer brings us closer to a state of purity and clarity.

However, the concept of ego death transcends the gradual shedding of these layers. Ego death is not merely about peeling back the onion to its core; it is about transcending the very existence of the onion itself. It is the profound realization that the core was an illusion all along, a construct of the mind designed to give us a sense of separateness and control.

Imagine reaching a point where even the scent of the onion no longer lingers. This metaphor captures the essence of true ego death—a state where not only the layers but the very notion of an individual self dissolve into the infinite. It is the ultimate surrender, where the boundaries between the self and the cosmos blur into non-existence, revealing the underlying oneness of all.


This experience can be both terrifying and liberating. The fear of losing our identity is a natural response, as the ego is deeply ingrained in our sense of self-preservation. Yet, the liberation that follows is unparalleled. Without the confines of the ego, we experience reality in its purest form, untainted by personal biases or desires. We become conduits for the divine flow of life, embracing the totality of existence with an open heart and mind.

Ego death is not a one-time event but an ongoing process of dissolution and rebirth. Each moment of awareness, each act of surrender, contributes to the gradual dismantling of the ego’s hold. In this continuous journey, we learn to embrace the paradox of being both nothing and everything simultaneously. We recognize that our true essence is not defined by our identity but by our intrinsic connection to the universal consciousness.

As we navigate this path, it is essential to cultivate compassion and patience for ourselves. The layers of the ego are intricate and deeply rooted, and their dissolution requires gentle persistence. By embracing the journey with humility and openness, we allow the process to unfold naturally, guided by the inner wisdom that transcends the ego’s limitations.


In conclusion, the journey of ego dissolution is a profound exploration of our true nature. It invites us to move beyond the superficial layers of identity and experience the boundless reality of our interconnected existence. Through this journey, we discover that true freedom lies not in the absence of identity but in the realization of our inherent oneness with all that is.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Crucible of Transformation

Ego Death and Enlightenment in the Story of Yeshu’a

In the narrative of Yeshu’a, commonly known as Jesus Christ, the events leading up to and including the crucifixion and subsequent resurrection offer profound allegorical insights into the journey toward spiritual awakening and enlightenment. This narrative, when viewed through the lens of spiritual and psychological metamorphosis, echoes the concept of ego death — a foundational experience on the path to profound personal transformation and enlightenment.

The Crucifixion: An Allegory for Ego Death

Ego death represents the dissolution of the self-constructed identity, a moment where the illusion of the ‘I’, with all its attachments and identities, is seen through and transcended. In the story of Yeshu’a, the crucifixion symbolizes this intense moment of surrender. It is a vivid depiction of the relinquishment of personal identity, desires, and the very notion of selfhood, akin to the spiritual surrender required for the dissolution of the ego.

This moment is not about physical demise but rather a metaphorical death, where all that is false must be surrendered and ‘crucified’. The agony in the garden of Gethsemane, where Yeshu’a confronts his impending crucifixion, mirrors the inner turmoil one faces when confronting the ego’s dissolution. It’s a profound surrender to a will greater than one’s own, to a state of being that transcends individual identity.

The Resurrection: Enlightenment and Spiritual Awakening

Following the allegory of ego death, the resurrection emerges as a powerful symbol of enlightenment and spiritual awakening. In the aftermath of the ego’s dissolution, a new consciousness is born — one that is not confined by the limitations and illusions of personal identity. This is the ‘resurrected’ state, where one experiences a profound sense of unity with all existence, an unshakable peace, and an intrinsic understanding of one’s true nature beyond the ego.

The resurrection signifies the ultimate triumph over the limitations of the egoic mind, a rebirth into a state of consciousness where love, compassion, and wisdom prevail. It reflects the awakening to a life lived in profound alignment with the universal truths, embodying the essence of nonduality — where the distinction between self and other, life and death, is recognized as an illusion.

Reflections for the Spiritual Seeker

The narrative of Yeshu’a’s crucifixion and resurrection serves as a rich allegorical framework for understanding the journey toward spiritual enlightenment. It challenges us to confront our egoic constructs, to courageously face the dissolution of our self-imposed identities, and to emerge transformed by the experience of our intrinsic, undivided nature.

As spiritual seekers, this story invites us to reflect on our journey towards self-realization, encouraging us to embrace the crucible of transformation and to emerge, like Yeshu’a, reborn into the light of awareness and unity. It is a reminder that true liberation and enlightenment lie not in the avoidance of suffering or the clinging to identity but in the profound surrender and transcendence of the ego.

Morgan O. Smith

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Exploring the Nondual State of Turiyatitta

Beyond the Ego’s Realm

In the journey of spiritual awakening, particularly during the Enlightenment period, we encounter profound concepts that challenge our understanding of self and existence. Among these concepts is the intriguing idea of the nondual state known as Turiyatitta. This state signifies a pivotal transformation where the individual transcends ordinary consciousness, reaching a realm beyond the ego’s grasp.

### The Death of the Ego

At the heart of this transformation lies the “death of the ego.” This term, often shrouded in mysticism, refers to a significant shift in one’s perception of self. In our usual state, we identify strongly with our ego, which is essentially our constructed self-image, replete with our personal history, beliefs, and idiosyncrasies. The ego thrives on differentiation, seeing the self as separate from others and the world at large.


### Turiyatitta: The Nondual Experience

However, in the state of Turiyatitta, this differentiation dissolves. It is a state where the boundaries that separate the individual from the experience are no longer present. In simpler terms, the experiencer (the individual) and the experience become indistinguishable. This is a profound realization, where one no longer views themselves as an isolated entity navigating through an external world, but rather as an integral part of a unified whole.

### Implications of Nonduality

This nondual perspective offers a radical shift in understanding the nature of existence. It challenges the deeply ingrained notion of individualism that pervades many cultures. In Turiyatitta, the sense of separation, which is the root cause of much of our suffering – be it in the form of loneliness, competition, or conflict – dissolves. What remains is a sense of oneness, a deep connection with all that is.


### The Journey to Enlightenment

Reaching this state is often described as the pinnacle of the spiritual journey, a key milestone in the path to Enlightenment. It requires deep introspection, meditation, and often, guidance from spiritual teachings and mentors. It’s not merely an intellectual understanding but a lived, experiential reality.

### Conclusion

The concept of Turiyatitta, and the experience of nondual awareness it describes, presents a fascinating and potentially transformative perspective on life and existence. It invites us to reconsider our relationship with ourselves, others, and the world around us, promising a path toward greater harmony, peace, and understanding.

Morgan O. Smith

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