Tag: Ego death

A Spiritual Journey with Paramahamsa Vishwananda

Ever since September 3rd, 2019, there has been one figure that repeatedly stands out in my memories, the guiding light that has transformed my life – Paramahamsa Sri Swami Vishwananda.

The journey began at Trinity St. Paul’s in Toronto. On that fateful day, I was fortunate enough to receive darshan from him. For those unfamiliar with this term, darshan is the divine sight – a soul-touching blessing one receives from a spiritually enlightened guru. It’s a deeply personal and transformative moment, where one locks eyes with the guru and dives into an ocean of spiritual energy.

Only a few months after this momentous encounter, in November, I experienced a profound nondual spiritual awakening. This spiritual crescendo further intensified in December when I submerged into a state known as Nirvikalpa Samadhi. This was not just any awakening; it was the death of the ego, a realization of my own Supreme Identity, connecting me to all of existence and beyond.

The reverberations of this awakening persisted. Shortly after, I was swept into a whirlwind of a full kundalini awakening. It was as if every chakra within me came alive, culminating with my crown chakra which unleashed a cascade of radiant lotus petals made out of pure light. To say this was monumental would be an understatement; it was an experience that etched itself deep into my soul.

However, the universe, as always, had its plans. The following year, as the world found itself grappling with a pandemic, physical interactions became a luxury. Undeterred, I, along with several fellow seekers, virtually sought the darshan of Paramahamsa Vishwananda.

Yet, the universe has its rhythm and the circle turned full once again. As the pandemic ebbed, last September, Paramahamsa Vishwananda graced Toronto with his presence. We were fortunate enough to bask in his divine presence, in person. My recent memories bring me to August 26th and then again on September 2nd when a smaller group of us made our way to Elmira, New York, to the serene premises of the Paranitya Narasimha Temple. It was here, in the sacred surroundings, that we received the darshan from Paramahamsa Vishwananda. The gleam in his eyes when he recognized me, the warmth of his smile, and our brief yet impactful conversation – these are memories I cherish. His gratitude towards us for travelling so far was heartwarming. But all I could do was thank him, for the transformation he triggered within me, for allowing me to see myself for who I truly am. It remains the most cherished gift I have ever received.

My spiritual voyage with Paramahamsa Vishwananda is one of love, awakening, and profound transformation. A journey that I hope continues, leading me to further depths and heights of spiritual realizations.

Morgan O. Smith

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The Facets of Ego and Transcendent Experiences: Part Two

As we proceed from Part One, a profound realization dawns. During moments of complete ego death, the individual facets cease to exist, yet paradoxically, they all exist, blending into a unified consciousness. The boundaries of ‘I’, ‘you’, ‘us’, and ‘them’ dissolve, making room for an all-encompassing ‘we’.

Our ego transforms and integrates into the collective consciousness, interconnecting with the egos of all beings, and indeed, the universe itself. Every trait, every star in our constellation, becomes part of this grand cosmic tapestry.

This realization isn’t merely intellectual, but experiential. Our individual identities meld into the collective, signifying an interconnectedness that transcends our singular perspective. In the dance of the facets of ego and the mystical experiences, we uncover our deepest potential to be interconnected, to share in the collective consciousness of all beings, and to participate consciously in the magnificent orchestration of the universe.

Through this journey, we don’t lose ourselves; instead, we find our place in the cosmos, gaining a newfound appreciation for the diversity and unity that life offers. We witness our traits, without labelling them as positive or negative, as part of a unified whole. Our ego ceases to be an entity isolated from the universe and becomes a fundamental part of the cosmic consciousness.

This exploration of the ego and its many facets is not just an intellectual exercise, but a call for introspection and self-awareness. It encourages us to embrace our full spectrum of experiences, from the depths of our struggles to the heights of our joys, all the while seeking that profound connection with the universe and our place within it.

Morgan O. Smith

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Ego Death

A Symphony of Sense and Surrender into the Nondual Existence

The ego, a fortress of our individuality, a custodian of our senses, crumbles during a profound psychological event termed ego death. This process, which is akin to crossing the Rubicon of our minds, signifies the temporary dissolution of our self-identity, the fading of our senses, and the surfacing of a cosmic oneness often linked to deep meditative states, transcendental experiences, or psychedelic journeys.

Neurologically, ego death presents an intriguing event. Our brain’s default mode network (DMN), which curates our self-narrative and sets us apart from others, shows a marked decrease in activity. We can compare it to a maestro leaving the stage, silencing the orchestra of our everyday consciousness that incessantly plays symphonies of thoughts, memories, and future projections.

In the ensuing stillness, our senses embark on an incredible transformation. The self-nonself dichotomy wavers, and feelings of oneness and interconnectedness seep in.

The conventional five senses, along with lesser-known ones such as proprioception (spatial orientation of our body parts), and thermoception (sense of temperature), recede, rendering the self imperceptible. Even the sense of agency – the consciousness of controlling one’s actions – seems to dissolve.

In place of the sensory absence comes the phenomena of nonduality – the essence of existence, unblemished by ego-driven distortions. Here, the biological reality of our senses converges with an intense metaphysical experience.

Kundalini rising – a sensation akin to a large serpent ascending the spine, activating each energy center or ‘chakra’ – might manifest in this transformative journey. Biologically, it could be perceived as a surge in nervous energy influencing neural circuits, engendering a radical alteration in perception.

The dissolution of our sense of time – chronoception – engulfs us in a timeless realm. Our sense of spatial orientation capitulates, inducing a feeling of non-locality, a state where one’s existence feels omnipresent.

This whole process might seem like an experiential validation of ‘absolute monism’ – a philosophical school of thought propounding the universe’s oneness, discrediting any duality between the individual and the world.

Yet, ego death is not an end; it’s a transformative beginning. The insights gleaned about the interconnectedness of all life forms and the illusory separateness sculpted by our ego can significantly reshape our lives.

From a wider perspective, ego death can be seen as a philosophical odyssey leading to an experiential understanding of consciousness, the essence of selfhood, and the nature of reality. The unravelling of our senses and ego sheds light on our inherent unity, nurturing a profound sense of compassion that percolates into every aspect of our existence.

Ego death’s exploration and its impact on our senses offer an avenue to challenge our conventional ways of perceiving, question our established sense of being, and dive deeper into the mysteries of our inner and outer universe. It’s not merely a psychological event but a spiritual expedition and a philosophical exploration that propels us toward a truer understanding of existence.

Morgan O. Smith

Yinnergy Meditation & My Book, Bodhi in the Brain…Available Now!

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